My Life In Theory

Most girls want to hear a guy tell her he loves her that she matters that she is his world that without her his life is meaningless. Sometimes I think girls go hunting for love as strongly as they do because they didn't have the luxury of an anchor, someone who reminds them of there value to the world with no alterior motives. I was rather lucky that I never had to question my value my importance in the world I was fed an abundance of confidence in my first 28 years of life to knew early on I had value. My problem in the game of love was and is that while I know I'm worthy of great love of feeling like the most important person in a person's life I have no clue how to earn that right from a stranger. And for that reason after I lost my dad and in losing him lost most of the solid footing over my confidence and ability to trust my decisison because the person I fell back upon if I failed was gone causes me to sometimes hesitate more then I ever have before in this game we ...

I used to think my life was pretty entertaining. How can you not think that way I mean were each born and given one life one total and then life happens. we meet these people and they call themselves our parents and they love us unconditionally if were really lucky we hear how much they love us and how important living our one life is. And then one day after all these years of having these amazing people who love you around you every day of your life..... Well you wake up on May 4th with a dad who is a mountain of a man full of kindness and opinion and goodness and he tells you he loves you and you know you are loved and protected and that much a better person because your his child. and then he takes a breath and he's gone. Least for me, I lost my dad in May so forgive for the long window of no updates but lets just say my mind wasn't really on my blog. I've spent the last few months trying to make sense of all this of my life and my dad of my new life without him a...

Whenever I feel like life is trying to overwhelming me I find baking to be the best distraction because I may not be able to control the world but I can control my stove. maybe its a crazy method but it works for me.