If

I've been thinking allot lately what my life would be like if....
if I'd been a different kind of person.
The kind who lived more and thought less.
The kind who opened up more and didn't block the world out.
The kind that wasn't so afraid and actually enjoyed the moments instead of analyzing the seconds between them.
Would that girl be happier, would she of lived a better life. found more joy?
who is to say but sadly dear readers we are who we are and for now all I can do is try and enjoy the moments from now on....and hope that the kind of girl i am will make me the person I'm meant to be.

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