at the bottom of the pool

have you ever sat at the bottom of the pool and screamed at the top of your lungs. all your fears insecurities all your deepest darkest secrets... it's one of the most terrifying feelings in the world because the more you rage and vent the more it hurts. you can't breath, can't think, can't move your only thought is anger and water. but the water is all around you consuming you taking your pain and amplifying it making it feel so much worse. till you can't take the pain anymore and you head for the surfice only to realize that no one has heard a word you've said and you are just as trapped above the water as you were beneath the surface.
i feel trapped in a life i never wanted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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