My Life In Theory

April 24,1915 REMEMBER THE ARMENIAN GENOCIDE. Remember the 1.5 million lives lost in a genocide still denied by it's perpetrates. Remember that to forget history, to deny history, is to allow it to occur again. April 24th 1915 Never Again! “I should like to see any power of the world destroy this race, this small tribe of unimportant people, whose wars have all been fought and lost, whose structures have crumbled, literature is unread, music is unheard, and prayers are no more answered. Go ahead, destroy Armenia . See if you can do it. Send them into the desert without bread or water. Burn their homes and churches. Then see if they will not laugh, sing and pray again. For when two of them meet anywhere in the world, see if they will not create a New Armenia .” WILLIAM SAROYAN  

My definition of the end of summer is when my work clothing go from shirts and pants to suit and sadly today's cold weather marked that day... Good bye summer, see you next year. hopefully we can spend some time at the beach together.... (Some Highlights From this summer Nadia and Niyaz's Wedding comic-con '09 And No Doubt live in Irvine..... Hope everyone had a great summer. Your Freezing Hero.

and just cuz i can some kings pictures Kopitar at the staple center a few of my kings rookies and newbies at the armenian Heritage event february 16th Sometimes all you can do in life is be yourself. I'm living each day like I'm promised tomorrow, and yet I know I'm not so i hope, hope that somehow life will just change for me. I know that I'm stuck in a rut but what can you do sometimes life just gets you stuck and the idea of change is just mortifying. So you play your part, live your life and wonder what tomorrow will provide for you. I used to dream about a future that would make others take notice lately tho i think I'd rather just have a life that makes me happy.... but for not I'll take what I've got working, great big crazy family, surrounded by amazing friends, a chance for my LA Kings to Make the playoffs. what more can a girl really ask for. Well i guess there are a few things, lets see i want love, money, power, adventure.... a winning kings se...

Have you ever just sat and watched a storm as it takes place around you. Most people I think find a winter storm inconvenient but for me its all about the feeling of the universe wanting a fresh start. Afterall life seems easier after a good cry. So it stands to reason that a good rain storm offers the same cleansing to the universe. Good night Your lost hero

Remember when we were little and we'd make lists for Santa of all the things we wished for. Silly things like toys, books, candy, cloths, season tickets to the LA Kings.... okay maybe that was just me. These days with people pushing and pulling for useless junk on expensive shelves it seems that as we got older we came to look forward to the list more and more and the idea behind the holidays less and less. It is as if we never realized that those lists were just an excuse to be greedy for a few short days a year. I guess it must be the 6 year old that lives in each of us, the one who sees holiday lights and smells pine in the air and just has to get a bit out of control, and somehow we forget what really matters. For me it is was and will always be all the memories I've made over the year its sad i can't remember what i got for Christmas last year but i can tell you who showed up on my front doorstep at 10pm on Christmas eve to help clean up after the holiday madness ...

To quote my favor ite perso n this week " When the hell did we becom e adult s?" i wanna go back in time to when drink ing beer, watch ing tv, going out to do nothi ng good, and getti ng lost in the momen t betwe en 3am and the rest of your life was a daily occur rence . I'm in the mood for a night of doing nothi ng produ ctive and never being asked about my futur e. my quest ion. .. "How do i excha nge my 5 year plan for a night of paid cockt ails? "

Remember when you worked to make money for your life..... How did it turn into your life revolving around your work? You know that feeling where one day becomes one week, becomes one month, becomes one year, becomes one life in a really dull rut you can’t get out of no matter how hard you try to break the surface of mountain building on top of you. It just seems like my last few weeks has blurred so much that I don't know what day it is any more. It’s all become the same get up get dressed go to work go home go to sleep lather rinse repeat. I miss having a job that pays for my social life, rather a career that took over my life.... Virg

just another crazy month starting and a life driving me batty

I have very distant memories of summer. It was a time when I could flee the hum drum pain of Monday to Friday dullness that was school. The time was spent at the beach, the mall, or simply watching tv and going out and about with friends but somehow in the time since graduating from university and starting in the real world I've lost not only my thrive to learn but also my 3 month vacation in favor of working full time and savings my paid time off for days i simply don't want to go into the office. it's a sad moment when a woman realizes her summer wardrobe can only be worn on weekends. Is it just me or shouldn't corporate America offer a 3 month vacation in which workers can choose to flee there stuffy offices and dress close in favor of flip flops and tank tops? I for one would be far more productive in September if i had even a 30 day vacation from corporate life. But I could be the exception.

Living in la has its pluses

I've always been the kind of person who likes to keep things separate, friends, family, work, past. in the nearly 3 years I've been working for the bank I've never even fathomed working in my home town. i had made an actual point of keeping work and my past separate knowing that by transferring to my local branch I'd be forced to face the people and things that made me so damb angry for all those years. but with my most recent transfer my past and present have been placed within blocks of each other. and i am once again dealing with the past and trying to remember why i worked so hard to leave it behind. part of what makes me who i am is this little town and i know that i have to face my demon one at a time if i'm ever going to move past my past. so maybe this move will be a blessing, doubt it but here is hoping i gain something from all this. later readers

since i can remember I've had a hard time falling asleep at night, no matter how tired i am sleep never really wants to come. I blame it on a overactive imagination and a mind that hates to rest even when it should i mean i can't stop talking half the time why should my mind be any different. but right now i think it has to do with change. Change has always been my best friend and worst enemy. I love what change represents: new starts, fresh chances, clean slates, new, different, a challenge to compete with. but at the same times it's also means fear, potential failure and lack of control. and we all know how much i love to control my life. but like most of the big moments or even the small ones change comes weather i have a say or not. and it looks like the universe has seen fit to force a new change in my life. Any time i have a change in my life big or small i can't sleep my mind keeps going over my choices or lack of choices i made to lead to this moment and what th...

have you ever sat at the bottom of the pool and screamed at the top of your lungs. all your fears insecurities all your deepest darkest secrets... it's one of the most terrifying feelings in the world because the more you rage and vent the more it hurts. you can't breath, can't think, can't move your only thought is anger and water. but the water is all around you consuming you taking your pain and amplifying it making it feel so much worse. till you can't take the pain anymore and you head for the surfice only to realize that no one has heard a word you've said and you are just as trapped above the water as you were beneath the surface. i feel trapped in a life i never wanted!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

This is a mountain of luggage which prevents us from enjoying our last few hours in nyc. For full details call.

Good old nick and his trusty map got us lost in queens yesterday. But at least we found our way to central park. Later readers Your reluctant hero

My view from the top of the empire state building. So the last 2 days have been a bit of a tourestie blur. A broadway show, shopping on 5th avenue, the met, the empire state building, saint vartans church, and some of the best bookstores in the city. Not a bad way to spend 2 days. And as the sun rises on today the 30th of april I smile. As I live one of those once in a lifetime days, waking up in NYC. Here is hoping my 24th year of life brings the changes I'm chasing and the moments that we all live for. Love ya readers, Your 24 year old hero

A thousand appologies to anyone wondering if we made it to nyc yet. But after a 5 hour flight that involved tiny seats a bratty preteen and arriving at 8am and taking a 40 minute taxi ride into brooklyn I have to say I was justifibly to tired to blog. Day 1 in nyc has Reminded me yet again why I love it here. Our first jont was a trip to chinatown on a damp morning which earned me a slip and slide on metal grates and a rather large gash on my left knee. One that hurt like a motherfucker and sent alice on a scavenger hunt for neosporen and bandaids. Fallowed by a subway trip back to brooklyn a 4 block walk to alice's sister hellen's place and allowing myself to be a part of her practical medical school exam. One I was no longer bleeding nick and I decided to try and sleep off the jet lag. Which required 5 hours of sleep in random angles. Then a trip to manhatten proper to visit serendipity 3 for the best deserts on earth. So there you have it day one of our adventures for your c...

All my bags are packe d Im ready to go Im stand in here outsi de your door I hate to wake you up to say goodb ye But the dawn is break in Its early morn The taxis waiti n Hes blowi n his horn Alrea dy Im so lones ome I could die So kiss me and smile for me Tell me that youll wait for me Hold me like youll never let me go cause Im leavi n on a jet plane Dont know when Ill be back again Oh babe, I hate to go There s so many times Ive let you down So many times Ive playe d aroun d I tell you now, they dont mean a thing Evry place I go, Ill think of you Evry song I sing, Ill sing for you When I come back, Ill bring your weddi ng ring So kiss me and smile for me Tell me that youll wait for me Hold me like youll never let me go cause Im leavi n on a jet plane Dont know when Ill be back again Oh babe, I hate to go Now the time has come to leave you One more time Let me kiss you Then close your eyes Ill be on my way Dream about the days to come When I wont have to le...